Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Shot Through the Heart
Yesterday I decided to DEEP CLEAN my house, something that has not been done since right before Austin was born. I was overhauling closets, washing walls and baseboards, chucking old toys, sending things to the D.I., the works. I also decided to do ALL OF THE LAUNDRY in one day. (Virtually an impossible task at this point in my life!) So I was running around like crazy, going from one task to the next, a little frustrated that I didn't seem to be able to finish anything due to minor catastrophes, feeding the baby, etc. I finally got around to making lunch for Zack and Derek who had done fairly well fending for themselves all morning. While I was making them some soup, I hear them banging on the piano in the front room. Really hard. (They are so not allowed to touch the piano without supervion by the way). I run in there to shoo them out and what do I see? The two of them STANDING ON THE KEYS, DANCING! (Don't worry mom, the piano is fine). Ooooooooo I was really mad. I am not a yeller, but I do have what Zack calls my "mad voice" and I used it then. I really gave it to them because 1. they know that that is against the rules and 2. it is my piano! So what if I hardly ever play it? It was my mom's! So I used my mad voice and when I had finished getting after them Zack turned around and started to really cry. I asked him what was wrong and he said in a shaking, sobbing voice, "I just don't think you love me anymore." Well if that wasn't a shot through the heart I don't know what is. After I talked to him for a while he calmed down but I didn't. It still chokes me up to even think about it! Apparently I put a little too much mad into my "mad voice." Lesson learned. Excuse me while I go make Zack and Derek some chocolate chip cookies.
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5 comments:
You are so cute, Laurie!
Ha ha ha! I most definitely have a mad voice too. Sometimes I think my kids are deaf unless I use my mad voice. Every time I do, Soren says, "Are you upset, Mom?" Uhhhh...yeah. But, inevitably, I too feel like a failure when I can't control my children with a loving tone of voice. Ah well, we're all learning, right? I've learned that I don't have much patience and I do have a temper. Not a great combination. I struggle every day to reign myself in against the constant "testings" of a three year old. Good luck, Laurie. I understand the piano thing, by the way...you just don't go there, seriously, what were they thinking?! :)
Oh, he's smart! But parenting can't always be the nice voice or you would be that crazy person on tv who nicely is asking her child to stop juggling the knives. Sometimes we need a mad voice. We went to visit a preschool yesterday and the first thing Claire told the director was that she had woken up Morgan and it made mom mad. Wonderful.
Oh yes, the mad voice. Unfortunately whenever it comes out of my mouth I sound exactly like my mother. I always hated her mad voice and I think that mine is hers times 10!
Diana also has a mad voice, but it is mostly directed toward me, and yes, it makes me cry. :(
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